Offtopic Sofa Time

[MarinaDuister]

Aw Hanne, send your mom my love! Goodluck! And a happy belated birthday to dad ^_^
And congrats on the 23KG, wow! I've lost about 2,5 KG since I stopped eating as much candies as I did before, so I'm becoming happier with myself now. My goal is to get about 3 more KG of, but we'll see about that ^_^ My jeans are already getting loose, which is INCREDIBLY annoying.

And to Vero: YAYAYAYAYAY! I'm happy they finally start to realize how amazing your painting skills are ^_^

I feel bad sometimes about complaining about life, I mean, compared to some of your lives my life seems like heaven right now :/ I get to go to school, have a quite adorable doggie waiting for me everyday (yeap, told ya , forever alone haha) and parents who care about me. And with my 58 kg and 1.68m I shouldn't be complaining.

Goodluck to everyone out there who is dealing with some sort of problem! :hug:
xx

[Sinkwriter72]

Big day tomorrow. I'm not terribly nervous right now about the possible results because I'm in a weird state of "whatever will be, will be, and I'll deal with it when I find out for sure what's going on." Instead, I'm a little nervous about the actual procedures because I've never gone through anything like this before. I'll just keep taking slow, deep breaths and tell myself everything's going to be okay, no matter what.

Tonight I'm about to take a few minutes to think some positive thoughts, maybe meditate on it all for a bit, and then head off to bed in hopes of getting some sleep before my appointment with the hospital tomorrow morning. Here's hoping everything goes smoothly and that the results are returned quickly and with good, healthy answers.

Thank you gals for being so supportive! I really appreciate it.

Hope you are all feeling well and having a good night.

[skftex]

Sherry.

[stargazer]

Hope everything turned out ok.

[skftex]

From Kuwait City, Kuwait, December 1991.

Can you find me?

[Sinkwriter72]

LOL. Yes, I can find you, Sharon.

[stargazer]

Yep!! I see you too!

[Sinkwriter72]

I'm back from my biopsy appointments at the hospital. Everything went fine, I think.

*SCROLL PAST THIS PART IF IT'S TOO MUCH PERSONAL INFORMATION or IF YOU ARE SQUEAMISH ABOUT DISCUSSION OF NEEDLES*

I'm a little sore. My right breast is okay, but my left breast is sore. I think it's because the doctor seemed to take a lot of samples from the left one, and it involved inserting the needle repeatedly, whereas the procedure for the right one involved inserting the needle only once. I was telling Sharon I think it's kind of like if you've ever given blood and they can't find the vein right away so they start moving the needle around too much and you end up feeling bruised because of it. That's how I feel right now. Bruised.

The actual procedures were fine; I didn't feel anything at all. The only thing that hurt was when they administered the local anesthetic to numb the areas where they were going to do a biopsy. The first needle didn't trouble me too much -- I do give blood semi-regularly so it wasn't much more of a pricking sensation than that -- but the second time he applied it, the pain was enough to make me wince. But beyond that, it really wasn't a big deal to have done. I think the tougher thing will be the after care, just feeling sore and bruised and achy. But I'll get over it.

* END OF SQUEAMISH DICUSSION *

All in all, everything seemed to go smoothly. The doctor was very efficient yet took the time to explain everything he'd be doing, and all the nurses and technicians were very kind and compassionate. I appreciate that a lot. During the first biopsy, one nurse simply stood by my shoulder where I could see her, and she rubbed my back. That was very nice of her, and it helped to calm me.

It's kind of comical how many times they all asked me my name and birthday. I suppose they want to make absolute certain they're in the right room working on the right person and have the right file folder before they get started. But it got a bit ridiculous when they asked me anytime they moved me to a new room for the next part of the process. I wanted to say, "Seriously?? I just answered that question about 20 minutes ago!" LOL. I know they have to verify and be very careful about procedure, but that got really silly.

Anyway, as I was telling Sharon, I won't know the results until Wednesday afternoon. That's when I have an appointment to meet with the doctor and find out. That's the big day, really. The stuff they did today was just one more step in the journey, but Wednesday is the big finale where I find out if it's benign or cancerous. Somehow I imagine I'm not going to get a lot of sleep on Tuesday night.

Thank you again, all of you, for your kind words and positive thoughts. Hugs to you all!

[SmackyKennedy]

I see you, Sharon! You're the cute little blonde girl holding up the sign, right?

Sherry, I'm glad it seemed to go as smoothly as it could today. Fingers crossed and positive energy coming your way that everything is perfectly normal.

Hanne, I hope it gets better with your mom soon. It all sounds so frustrating! And GREAT job on getting healthy! I've been slacking off lately and I feel it. I haven't been sleeping well so I'm too tired to get up and work out in the morning... but then I feel like crap for not doing it and so on...

Not much happening in my life. Painting stuff has dropped off a bit (as expected once my family got their fixes-let's face it I'm not THAT good), but I've got a few more to do before Christmas. I'm going to do mini paintings for Christmas cards, just postcard size, which will serve as gifts AND advertising. Hehe. I'm also working on something I can have printed and use as thank you cards, both for people who buy my paintings and for thank you's in general.

I think the only main thing that's been going on is that my ongoing financial problems have sort of come to a head. I simply can't afford my rent on my own anymore. I'm on my apartment complex's waiting list for a 1 bedroom apartment for me and my 2 kids, which should just be loads of fun. We are people that are used to having our own space. I actually sleep in the living room so the kids can each have their own room. But I have to suck it up and deal. People have it a lot worse. I'm just paying so much in rent and utilities that I can't get ahead or do anything and I'm sick of it. I want to get out of debt, live life and be able to take my kids places. So moving will likely happen in January if one becomes available. You know, unless I meet my soul mate and we move in together. Actually that would be easier, so if you're out there now would be a good time to show up.

Take care, all! Keep smiling

[Sinkwriter72]

I have to get to an appointment so I don't have time to delve into details, but I just wanted to let you know the salient point:

I DO NOT HAVE CANCER!



I will now fall over with great relief.



Seriously though, I've been so stressed about this that I don't even know what to feel. After this past month of anxiety, stress and worry, I feel completely bizarre and oddly numb, like it hasn't quite processed yet, you know what I mean?

I still have to follow up in 6 months, especially on one thing that needed keeping an eye on, but for now (and for as long as I can keep it that way), it's GOOD NEWS.

Thank you ALL for the support and love you have given me throughout all this! THANK YOU.

xoxoxoxooooooooooooo

[stargazer]

THAT'S AWESOME SHERRY!!!! WOOHOO! Great news!

[SmackyKennedy]

Yay!!!!!! :eusa-dance: :character-beavisbutthead:

[ThyneAlone]

Haven't had much of a chance to post, Sherry, but you know how happy I am for you and was the minute I read your post, what a relief. :eusa-clap:

[MarinaDuister]

Oh my, Sherry, THAT'S AWESOME!! :') :eusa-dance:

I just finally got myself an avatar heehee, it's me and my darling Dribbel <3

And as for Bones this week: ARGH SCHOOL WHY?! I'm probably going to be late (agaaain....) so prepare for late fangirling haha I've seen one preview so far, I can't resist Lol Cam is hilarious at times
xx

[TJ4ever]

Sorry it's been so long! Have some news, but first... SHERRY, I am so happy for you that everything turned out to be ok! You must be relieved! I am! Sorry I wasn't here for you. But when I just read it I crossed everything for you and hoped that it's gonna be ok! I'm really glad it is! What a stressful time! Lots of hugs to you!!!

So, my news! I quit my job today! Got a new job which I start in January. So, no birthday vacation on my next b-day! I must say I didn't feel like "YAY". I feel a bit sick, a bit sad ( I was there 10 years ), a bit relieved and also I have to smile a bit! So a bit of everything. I think it's better for me this way, but of course it's a bit scary to star a new job after so many years! Hope everything will turn out to be ok! Everything happend so fast. Suddenly I got a new job within a week. Just started to write applications. Strange how things worked out sometimes. Well, I made my decision. Now I have to live with it. that it was the right one.

More later! Wanna go to bed! Couldn't sleep very good for a few days.

Hugs to you all!

[skftex]

Simone! So happy for you that you got another job! I really hope that this one works out for you! It is scary starting a new job. So you quit today, will you be working the rest of the year there or just quit and will not work until January?

[ThyneAlone]

Simone, what can I say - that's fantastic! Well done and hope it all works out for you.

[TJ4ever]

Thanks, Sharon and Steph! I really hope it'll work out!

Sharon, I had to give 4 weeks notice to the end of the next month. So technical my last day would be December 31st. But I still need to get some vacation days. So my last day at my "old" work would be December 14th now! Then I have a two weeks holiday and start at the new job on January 2nd. It's all very exciting ...and scary!

[Sinkwriter72]

Simone! That's terrific news! :eusa-clap: I know how huge it is to make a big change in job, so I understand the mixed emotions that go with it -- excitement and nervousness, relief and worry, all combined.

But no matter what, it's got to be a good step forward, right? Because you were so miserable at your current job, and no one wants to be miserable in something that takes up such a large portion of their day. So I hope that this new job is wonderful and rewarding, and that it's monumentally less stressful than the old job. Congratulations on this brave new step in your journey. I wish you nothing but the best!

P.S. to Marina -- what a cute dog you have! So adorable.

Thank you all again for your well wishes. It's only been 1 week since I got the results of my biopsies, but I have to admit... I feel like I'm still processing it all. Maybe the feelings will go away when everything heals and the bruises are gone and the biopsy marks have vanished. Maybe it will feel like some strange surreal dream that never really happened. But right now, it's hard to describe.

I was telling Sharon the other day, I'm relieved and happy with the results (SO relieved), but at the same time I feel like I've spent the past month worrying and stressing out about this, trying to prepare myself for any possibility (good or bad), and stuffing down those feelings of anxiety in a terrible attempt to deal with them. Then just like that everything was fine, I just have to get checked again in 6 months, and that's that. But my feelings aren't a lightswitch, you know what I mean? Just because the doctor says everything's benign doesn't make all those pent-up feelings of fear miraculously disappear like the flick of a light. So I'm trying to figure out how to release all the feelings I've been holding in. Not sure how to do that. So this past week I've been feeling pretty distracted.

I know this sounds ridiculously melodramatic, but right now I feel like I need a gigantic hug and/or a very long cry.

[ThyneAlone]