Hey everyone, sorry I haven't been on so much lately.
With work and my grandmother's cancer (yep, third grandmother in 3 years), I haven't been able to sit down.
I know, I on;y work 3 hours a day, but then I don't want to get on the computer when I get home.
I want to sleep. Haha.
And about my grandmother. Here's a quick rundown.
She's had breast cancer for several years. This year it decided to take its toll on her, and she's been going to double chemo treatments.
Well, she'd been feeling really sick, but the doctors told her that it was just her chemo.
Well my Grandfather got really angry and made them see her.
Turns out, her chemo had caused a grapefruit sized mass in her abdomen.
The mass was absorbing and releasing the chemo poisons into her body and killing her.
They removed it, and now she's missing a large part of several of her organs.
She was going to go home for hospice, but the doctors convinced her to stay in the hospital.
Here comes the worse part.
I'm so afraid to go see her. This whole ordeal happened about a week ago. I have yet to go see her, and I know I should.
But.... I'm so fed up with everyone around me dying, quite frankly.
And I can't handle it. You all know I'm the strong one in my family. But lately, I've just been so tired. So emotionally spent. And I don't want to be strong anymore.
I want to break down and throw a fit and cry and hit something and be a TEENAGER.

End rant.
I'll go through and read up to my last post, and reply accordingly.
I just wanted to explain my absence.
More to come tomorrow after work and babysitting.
Hugs to all.