So, hellooo there everyone. I haven't been posting much but I've been reading everyone else's the last few weeks and
In what seems to be a trend for me, August has been a rather stressful and irritating month. If my kids didn't start school so darn early (August 7) I would seriously just take a vacation the whole month and visit family so as to avoid being home.
Had to take one of cats, Ringo, to the animal shelter today due to behavior issues that have been ongoing for 3 years now. I feel like such a lowlife, and my kids were upset, but I can't deal with her anymore. She bites and scratches with little provocation, pees on everything but her litter box. I've thrown out 2 mattresses, rugs, and a couch because of her and I'm just and the end of my rope. My house smells like pee and I can't afford to keep replacing this stuff. Since I live in an apartment complex it's not safe for her to stay outside with all the other kids messing with her, and then if she bites them...ugh. Just a bad situation.
Her sister is completely normal and docile though, best cat ever.
The hospital I work for cut back
again so once again I found myself scrambling to find work. I did find some and plenty of it, the problem is that this client is paid through grant/research money so sometimes it takes a really like time for me to get paid and meanwhile things are past due and accumulating fees. Overall, finances aren't getting any better and actually seem to be getting worse. I'm just not getting anywhere. I mean the basics are covered but I can't pay off anything, bill collectors calling constantly. Can't experience a lot of fun activities for me or the kids. It's just depressing to work all the time for what feels like very little. I really need to focus on a new career but I don't have the slightest clue what I want to do beside art and that really can't support me. It's kind of scary. I'm 34. I should have a clue by now, right? I envy people who have found something they're passionate about and are good enough at it to make something of themselves with it.
So the money woes bring me to the next thing. I've asked my ex-husband to move back in.
Financial reasons only. He is struggling too and I figured he could just rent from me (we have the space) and give me that money instead of to another landlord. He agreed and it will probably happen this weekend. He was actually planning on asking us if we wanted to move into his place.
This feels like failure though. I feel like I've completely failed because I can't make it on my own.
We did have a pretty honest discussion about what we want and don't want out of this, so I'm
hoping it will be okay and it will work out and won't be damaging to the kids. I'm not in love with him at all anymore, so maybe that will make it easier to get along?? I just really need a roommate and I don't know anyone around here. He's the only person who I can trust not to steal my stuff or hurt me or my kids, so I felt like I have no choice. On the upside he has a washing machine....
....because my washer busted and leaked a flood all over the bottom floor this morning. We'll need new carpet, etc. Just a mess and one more thing I didn't have time for. I had to move my workstation because I can't hear the audio files for work over the 3 giant fans drying the floor the next 3 days.
Positives? Hmmm... We're all healthy, well, for the most part. My sister had an adorable baby girl a couple weeks ago
https://twitter.com/iCraveiLove/status/ ... 17/photo/1 and my other sister is due with her first baby in March. Bones and Castle will be back soon. That's really all I've got right now.
THanks for listening. Take care everyone. Big TJ-like hugs.