Clockgirlkelly wrote:I like this quote...
"I spent the first fourteen years of my life convinced that my looks were hideous. Adolescence is painful for everyone, I know, but mine was plain weird."
I remember those feelings too. I remember writing, sketching, dreaming, and usually it revolved around my "fantastical" relationship to some boy...who was clueless to the fact that he held my self worth so delicatly within the palms of his hands. How is it we define ourselves by others, even now? Crazy!
I remember the awkwardness that was "teenage-dom". Had its share of good times and bad, but yeah, what bugged me was wondering if I was worth any guy's time. The answer (I found out a few years later when my confidence boosted from work) was an emphatic yes. Though in the years since I grew to realize that I, along with every other decent person out there are worth it, regardless of who enters our lives and says we aren't (and hopefully that's a small percentage, or no one).
Now I'm on the side of the fence where I know I'm worth it, could be happy single or taken (well, gf for a start), and am currently faced with either possibility. The latter would be nice...he is the icing on my cake. Here's to hoping he feels the same way (I know he does, but he comes with baggage - a possessive ex, and needs to cut those ties for good).
Btw...nice posts! I've read the ones posted since I was last here, and it's nice to know TJ was a good guy, and also that when folks find out he's in public (darned near in front of them!) that they hold back when it is best to be quiet or discrete. I'm sure he appreciates the fans approaching, and the quiet moments too where folks see him but hang back. He's got some great fans.